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interviewing anberlin tomorrow!

I'm doing a last minute interview with Anberlin tomorrow in Rochester, NY.

If you have any questions for the band, please send them my way! I'd love to incorporate them into the interview if possible! :)

xoxo audio love.
- leah falkowski

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What do you do when you personally know that you have changes to make in your life?
Those changes are not going to make you "popular with your friends",
they aren't going to understand you nor really support you through these times.
What do you do when you need your friends to be your backbone through these changes?
I don't want to distance myself from them, but with these choices I will be.

Who do you turn to then?

I'm broke.
I'm unhappy.

Things that make me happy cost money.
It costs money to get to people that I love/miss.

Every day is a new day,
a new day is a new opportunity,
a new opportunity is a chance for change,
a chance for change is a new hope,
I need hope.

xoxo audio love.
- leah falkowski

11/22/2008

I've had a lot on my mind lately and not the patience or ability to put my thoughts into coherent sentences.

I don't want to be safe.
I never want someone to say that they are with me because I'm the safe bet.
I want to have uncontrollable, irresistible, and irrevocable love.
The sort of love that can't be contained and confined in just three words.

I've played the safe road before, it didn't work out.
I found out that I lost myself along the way and didn't realize it until it was almost too late.

That's what makes me different from you.

I take chances. I never want to be wondering what if? What if I did more? I know that I've done everything in my power in all situations and in the end, I'm the one who just has to let go.

I wear a key around my neck to remind me to keep my heart locked tight. Only to release it to those who actually deserve it. But how do you ever know who just has a front up? When I realize that someone new may be getting too close, I push away. I'm well aware of the fact that I do it. If that person truly cares, they'll push back won't they?

I don't fall easily, but when I do I fall hard.

I've had some good talks with some friends lately, with the help of them and some of my favorite artists I've finally found some clarity with present situations.

I'm happy that I am the way that I am. I'm okay with the way that I wear my heart. Those who deserve it see it and experience it to it's fullest. Although, some that don't deserve it make their way in, I wouldn't have it any other way. From those people I've learned more about myself and the others around me. Some people don't deserve unconditional love and you just have to let them go before your own heart is soured by the negativity they bring.

Distance is just a measure of time. Time is worth it. I've always been able to overlook distance because it can always be changed and overcome. Distance is computable, while love is boundless.

Most of my favorite people in the world are far away from me. I see them for short times. Those short times though are some of the best moments, moments I want to forever hold on to. Because those moments, however short they are, are worth it. They are filled with joy & love, with appreciation. Everyone makes the most of those times because we don't know when the next may be.

I feel at home not in any certain building or city. I feel at home when I'm surrounded by the people that see me for who I am. The people who appreciate and understand me just the way I am, when I'm with those people - I'm home.

I miss always feeling at home.

xoxo leah

From Kings of A&R - Chris Nathan! :)

New Music - Chris Nathan

Posted October 14, 2008 â�” in Music News

Letâ�™s welcome Chris Nathan, a Nashville prodigy artist. Nathan has the spunk of Kid Rock and musically falls towards bluesy artists such as Black Crowes and Gavin Degraw which makes him our CMJ pick. Our favorite songs include radio ready Bonnie and Clyde and I Wouldnâ�™t Change A Thing.

Show Dates:

Oct 16 World of Beer - Tampa, Florida
Oct 18 World of Bee r- Tampa, Florida
Oct 23 CMJ Music - Sullivan Hall - New York, New York
Oct 25 State University of New York - Geneseo, New York

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Yay! Congrats to one my favorite people in the world for being "Kings of A&R"'s CMJ pick this year! If you're going to CMJ go check him out, trust me you WON'T WANT TO MISS IT! More info about the CMJ showcase here: http://www.sullivanhallnyc.com/ and if you haven't already go add him/check him out on myspace here: http://www.myspace.com/chrisnathanmusic.

It's getting old...

I have a tendency to get what I want.
I may get what I want but I only see it for a glimmer and then it fades away.

I was talking with twinny earlier and I came to a brilliant realization/analogy for my life...

I'm sick of life throwing me curve-balls when all I'm trying to do is play t-ball.

Imagine standing up at a t-ball plate, the ball is rested on the little stand and then by the time you go to take your swing you have a 72 mph curve ball coming at you.

That's my life, for serious.

I went to DC for a vacation, ended up seeing Jason, going to the zoo, eating sushi at Mei Wah, & going to my favorite smithsonian (natural history). We also went to Jammin Java where I got ridiculously intoxicated off of Jameson and we went to North Carolina the next day to see the same show (Danger Radio, Farewell, & Red Car Wire).

I'm home and I'm no more relaxed than I was before I left,
if anything my mind is in more of a bubble then ever.

I'm ready for a drastic change.
Now I just need to make a decision...

Easier said than done....

I'd rather have a sleepless night than another one spent wasted replaying our last scene...

Three words that scare me...

I love you.

Seriously, those three words.
I found myself using them again, carelessly.
When did I become so careless again?
For months I refused to use them with anyone that wasn't family, minus one best friend.
Then I began to use them with friends again.
Then I found myself using them carelessly, saying them when I really didn't mean them.
How did these words lose their meaning yet again?

Love ya, love you, luv you, and love yew - those aren't I love you.
Never have been, never will be, at least with my eyes and ears.

How hard is it when you know they aren't ringing true?
When it hurts to hear them instead of feeling that warmness.

I believe in my life I've heard those three words from one person that meant them and continue to.
And I believe to this day, he is the only person I've said them to and truly meant them.

So how do words lose their meaning?
How does a simple phrase that people yearn to hear turn into something that's said when it isn't true?
When I use those words, I mean them, if only everyone else did as well.

With all this being said, I miss him.
I think a visit is needed soon.
I need my best friends.

Only two more...

Finally, I've gotten through (most) of my Warped Tour photos. I have to finish up my Darien Lake (Buffalo), NY ones and my Uniondale, NY photos. Cleveland, Detroit, Mississauga, Montreal and Camden are finished in all their glory. The highlights have been uploaded here on Buzznet while the full sets can be found on my flickr.

I'm trying to push through because I have even more that I have to edit. I had the pleasure of shooting Jesse McCartney two days ago! I have tons of photographs from before Warped Tour that I never got around to editing as well as photos from my niece's soccer game.

Aka, I have thousands of photos to go through and edit! Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, I just got behind and then pushed even FURTHER behind.

Tomorrow is my birthday! The big 2-3. Wow, I'm old.

Have a good one and check out all the photos I've updated! :)

xo audio love.
- leah falkowski

24 hours.

until I'm content.

xo leah